life, love, hate

Its kinda weird humans hav so many feelings inside and it only shows itself when situations are so.
never hav i teared in joy for anyone except when i sing devotional songs
but this time, a special someone actually made my heart flood wit joy.
i'm a kinda person who gives respect to emotions of a person...and wen it comes to love, care and concern no one except my mom or dad made me feel so...
even my friends would be there giv some moral support...

but this special someone, gave me more than wat anyone would giv me...it was the love that god spread around...she was there wen i was down.
when i had problems running in and out my mind, she cleared my thoughts and helped me to decide a path...
wen i lost the love that i needed and stranded, she was there to light that small candle in me to brighten my vision..
an ideal love life that i needed, from internet frens, to good frens, to best frens and now to my love...
it helped to build the trust in us alot and that made me decide that she was the one...
i sometimes think, wat if she were to hav jus said that she wanted to leave me one day...that would mean all girls were the SAME right???
but she proved me wrong by wenever we had spend our time alone, she would spice things up with her loving words and mesmerising eyes, and sometimes things do nearly get outta hand but to me shes being faithful, and trust is an asspect in every love life....

i hated my life at one point...i had no concentration in my education..had family and girl issues...
my father suffering from heart probem, no money to buy good food, i couldn't even find a job ,
i felt like killing myself....
but that special someone made me feel that there isn't a point in dieing, a person who can swim against his/her problems and survive in it, is the real successful person...

in my life i've seen so many people in my life, from the friendliest frens to the vainpots to the Bs...
and it seems that in life it can take sometime to choose the right girl of ur future...finally i hav..but it takes longer to find the right friend u want in ur life till u die...but all i hav met r casual frens...
that special someone was my best fren...she always had been bymy side and i could say that having a best fren to be ur girl is a blesing because she is the one after your mother who understands u best...and my special someone has done everything that a true wife would do for me....she even made the best coffee i ever had in mylife...
she touched my heart like an angel and made me tear like a baby wit her words and actions....
and thanking god for giving her to me...



more to come
bubie!!!