Left alone??...

felt like talking about the relationship i have with others...how do feel wen u see ur frens not being close with u animore..not talking to u, well once in awhile or maybe not at all...i miss all of them...i wonder why my boys are showing me so much attitude nowadays...well nt so much of an atitude but more like a 'not interested'. my angel, she jus has to always give excuses tt shes going out with others we she knws me for 4yrs...i like so sad...wenever i called her for a movie, she'd jus say shes planned to go for the movie with someone else..n afta tt tellin me the story...shalinee wen missing, i wonder why she did, but i know shes still active in her own ways though she said she had exams, but well i miss her alot, ALOT cause she was the 1st to knw hw passionate i was in love...n if nt for me, i think she wuldn't hav continued skooling, instead moving overseas...one caring frend she was... den my god sis dhurga..she really 4gt me!!! the clique she is with are my old buddies but i guess they themseleves dun tell me anything abt her....but she found her love alreadi n im sure tt was a big reason for her disappearance...she culd even tell her mom tt i didn't msg or call her wen i did but she didn't reply...isn't tt right akka??? my brother navan...oh my gosh!! u've been missing alot lately...boy he was the most closest of frens with me since secondary school, though i knw him in primary school...i had lunch almost everyday at his place with him on his bed...i slack with him for recess...we sit together for every lesson...in poly we were in the same course for 1 yr den we seperated,however we got back thru dance sport...gosh i loved it alot man...we were the only guys dancing together and veri well like couples...well im the girl and he's the guy and the teacher would always say tt i was more graceful than the other girls....hahaha all bcos he was there to enjoy with me...but ever since yr 2. he disappeared now and then...once inawhile we see in the bus...now, even tt doesn't happen...only in average, twice a month i see him...how awful wuld this be...

im so sad tt these beloved frens are missing in action in my life....plese come back guys!!!

peace?

life goes on as usual,

school, prayers, bubu, friends, my pops n mommykins

but there jus one thing tt i cant seem to find, y cnt i find peace???

wherever i go, i dun feel a peace of mind

at school, stressed about lesson, too cold environment; sometimes i seriously wish they had off the air-con, walking here and there during breaks without an aim, no one to actualy study with..

at home, always seeing the same 3 faces, have to do the house work on my own wen my stupid sis always sits on the computer jus chatting, friendstering and now facebooking too, dad coming home drunk almost every night even though he's aware of his health condition, mom always looking emo;wonder why, and yes the prayers i do at hm; they don't seem to help me gt peace most times...

go out, haha, i cnt even go out, its like im in army, and skool is like im booking out and going home or something...

somehow, i jus wish i culd find that peace...help me