i'm sorry

to see u tear will be the last thing in my mind
but i put u in this spot because of my stupidity.
i wanted u to have a big family.
i wanted u to gain back your happiness.
but instead i began thinking of u the wrong way,
how could i?
it was my suspicious mind that saw things around me in the wrong ways,
should i have really suspected you, that minute would have been my last.
but afta a lustrous experience with u, i can't make that assumption.
i could never leave your side for another, i'de be cheating my own heart.
i feel insecure, i fear, im worried, bubu, would u leave me?
please..
if it were to happen,....
i jus dunno why, but, my love for is so big, i'd blow up if i were to loose u..
how could i have hurt you??? was it really me who did that honey??
i'm sorry....