humiliation

today i had nvr felt busier den ever...morning i got up at 5.30...got ready and left with my dad n my sis to tample...it was my uncle's wedding..and well...i felt that it was gonna be the most hactic daY EVER!!... dots to dots..

talking to my cousins n my frens...meeting all my relatives who didn't even rmbr tt it was me...yea...it was feeling like MY DAY...

wedding over...back hm...the bride and groom came home with their families...i jus left cos i was supposed to tie statue for chariot prayers near my place..with my bro's help, i managed to do it with all the best i can..

done and over at the tentage...my uncle n his boss were making thoranam and well...me n my bro were to collect some things from my dad's store and....dots to dots...deco doing in the process...familiy enters...frens enter and leave...

and this new guy, karthik who was my uncle's new fren was introducing himself to me...i felt he was a lil gayish but he was very nice towards me....and well he even said he wanted to meet up wit me...welll to help me in my drawing business and well i said ok as we stayed in opposite blocks, not knwing each other for very long...

dots to dots...deco almost done...my uncle was looking at my statue..and well he had his comments but i wasn't arnd to hear it...i did my own work cos it was getting late...and den he asked a question...

wat flower did u order for the statue???

for a sec i was jammed cos i totally forgot afta hactic weeks of work... n i said i nvr order, no moni...

and suddenly... a slipper jus flew but missed me and everyone was laughing at me...like wtf!!!

jus for not ordering i get humiliated...and for peet's sake, all the fundings were collected by me this yr...up n dwn blocks....food also i decided wat to put for people....performance on another side giving problem even though i arranged it...and my father goes arnd stressing me n bossing me arnd... n now this...no one except my fren's dad appreciated the amount of effort i had been putting to make this a successful function...y r people making use of me n jus humiliate me...

this isn't right...!!!

i can't hit him back...but im not tt kinda person...but my own mother laughed at wat had happened instead of confronting him for doing such a humiliating thing...somemore in public!!!

i jus wished there was someone who be out there to listen to the hurt in me...n make me feel cooled..

hunnie, where r u wen i really need u???