shame on me!!!

how could i have suspected u?? did i??? all i wanted was to speak with you but the way i did it was totally an unforgivable way...well now i'm a cheat, a untrustable person, a basturd, a CB!!
i wanted to be a clear route to ur path, but now i've become an obstacle. i dunno who u love, wat u want, where u wish to go, i'll leave u in ur own way and be standing in a corner, watching u move away, or maybe moving on....i feel ashamed of myself.
wat hav i done under the name of love...never hav i done for u anything...but now my true colour, i guess, has shown itself...i'm pure evil, i'm not a good person, i don't deserve to be loved, i dunno...this is how i feel about myself, i dunno if u still do love me but, wat i have done can never be forgiven...and even if it was...it will never be forgetten...thats how much i have affected your life...if u really think u want me..i'll be here, if u don't then its ur wish, who u want to choose...after all u have done things that even i don't and u made those choices on ur own accord, who am i to interfere in your choices...afterall, its your life....sob sob...i'm sorry..so lonely..mr.lonely...i have no body, to call my own....