are you acting biii????

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it hurts deep inside wen a girl tells a guy tt she wants to leave him....it happens
but it hurts more wen she gets back and says tt she was jus doing it for the sadness the guy is in....
sob sob...

went to meet her yesterday...
well
thinking that it wil be the last time...i jus felt like the sickest idiot, so damn emo.
slping on the bench, walking around the park, tearing on the pond...
it hurt...
den, she came...late...well her 6+ was actually jus b4 7...haix...i knew guys would always do tt...
she sat at a distance...expected...well i was in fury...anytime could blast...so i jus talk to her in a tone i never felt i would have had ever...
afta awhile of talking...she sat beside, asked, can talk anot??
i said, ur wish, she held my hand and said sori...i jus turned away...thinking..is this for real???
i didn't expect a sorry.
and den i jus...turned happy a lil...only to end up hugging her like i always did...it felt so much betta....MUCH BETTTER!!!
playing with her around the pondo, shouting at the lizards, holding her hand and walking down the park. talking ...errr...its a lil crappy...but yea...and most importantly, tickling!!! i love to tickle the hell out of her....jus to see her wierdest reactions...
and den wen our ways, me...back hm...she...popular..

den she called and said sorry..wel it felt better afta she actually meant it....

today, well talking to her normally in the morning...and den...gone to class...and awhile ltr i went to look up her blog....its damn classy...u gotta see...she had a new entry today..
excited on wat she would have written i started reading slowly....slowly my face turned black..well if u know wat i mean...one sentenced...struck him hard down there....

"she reeli wanted to end everything, she jus told tt for the sake of making him happy!!!"

i mean...y?? if u wanted u could have told me off...but y do this....it realli hurts....i was and am still hurt...
all im left now is wit tears...pain in ur words....y r u hurting me this much...don't u really want me..didn't u hear my heart crying inside....

kaayam konda ithayam, athu kuzhanthai pola,
vaayai moodi azhumae, solla vaarthai illai...
bii...pls...don't go....pls..a plead..frm this loving sole...
sobsob
u might now knw y i ended with the cos.... in our convo...im in tears